Adapted from a 13 page paper so forgive me the length.
It is
really, really hard to be the “smart kid”. I realize this statement is unlikely
to invoke sympathy in most readers, but I assure it is very true. From the day
I entered school, I always felt different. More often than not, I was bored and
extremely ill-at-ease. Contrary to popular belief, school is not a cake-walk
for gifted students. The struggle to fit in socially is excruciating, and the
typical methods of addressing the needs of gifted students merely exacerbate
the problem My schooling addressed neither my social or academic needs. I was
rarely challenged academically, and I was segregated socially.
Advanced
learners are perhaps the least understood of students. When budgets and school
plans are drawn up, services directed at advanced learners are often the first
to be cut.
I have always been advanced in most academic
categories, but I was an especially advanced reader. I was reading completely
on my own at three years old. I have no conscious memory of learning to read. I
do, however, have a clear memory of my first few days in kindergarten. The
teacher began to show a short video about letter sounds, and I became really
agitated internally. I was confused; I wondered why she would teach us about
something we already knew, until I realized that I was the only one who already
knew how to read. I cannot begin to
describe how isolated I felt at that moment. I have told friends that I felt
like an alien. From that moment on, I intentionally hid that I was far ahead of
my classmates. I discovered quiet ways to entertain myself while my teacher
taught the class things I already knew. I successfully hid my intellect until
second grade, when a perceptive teacher realized I was very far ahead of the
class. My classmates were working on memorizing their times tables while I
doodled. I am not sure of the exact set, but it was either multiples of 2 or 3.My
teacher came over to me and asked why I wasn’t working on my times tables like
the rest of the class. When I explained I already knew them, she told me to
move on to the next set on the class chart. When I explained I knew them all,
she began to quiz me quietly. That afternoon I was sent home with a letter
advising that I should be tested for giftedness.
The
gifted students were actually placed in their own wing of the school. I was
more likely to interact with a gifted fifth grader than with a non-gifted peer
of my own age. The feeling of being socially isolated because of my intellect
was only heightened by this separation. On the bus, which was the only time I
saw my “regular” schoolmates, I was often teased about being in the “special”
wing of the school. My academic boredom was only slightly lessened in this
classroom. I still wasn’t challenged, and I became increasingly bored with
schoolwork. As hard as this was for me, the false curve created by this
separation was probably worst for those who lagged behind the other students in
the class. Despite the fact that these were clearly bright students, or they
would not have been in the class, I watched these students develop a complex
about being the “dumb ones” in our class. If they had had more interaction with
their more typical peers, then they may have had a more honest self-image.
Not only my own personal experiences but
scientific “research has proven that students need learning experiences
appropriate for their abilities or else they will lose their motivation to
learn” (Conklin 20). Conklin’s statement applies to the gifted and
the disabled student alike. As with any group that differs from the norm,
advanced learners have multiple roadblocks that impede their ability to reach
their full potential.While all gifted students face challenges,
there is a marked difference between boys and girls. Boys in elementary school,
if they are not challenged, “tend to act up and be labeled as troublemakers”
(Kutner 2). Schools
will often address the problem behavior without really addressing the core
issues behind the child’s behavior. However, this can also work in the male
child’s favor. The extra attention may lead them to specialists who will
identify the root cause of their behavior. Although I was identified as gifted,
due to a perceptive teacher, most, “girls of that age …are likely to be highly
cooperative” and are not recognized as gifted “even though [they need to put]
very little effort into their work” (Kutner 2). This means that it is critical
that schools make the effort to go beyond the surface and work extra hard to
identify gifted students. If the
school district fails these students, then it fails society as a whole.
Perhaps the biggest misconception
is that gifted learners do not need help academically. Because of their
talents, many believe that these students will succeed no matter how much
attention is directed at their education. This is a dangerous assumption that
can lead school districts down a path that fails to address the needs of these
students. No matter how bright a student is, that student will never learn
without access to learning. Like any other student, gifted students need
direction and assistance in order to learn. If one has never seen a book, then
that person would never know how to read. This would not mean that person is
not brilliant, just that that person has not been taught. Thus, all students
need guidance in order to learn. Recently, the United States has faced a steady
decline in math and science skills compared to other industrialized nations. If
the needs of America’s brightest students are not addressed, then the US will
continue to place lower and lower on the education scale.
Many gifted students lose all enthusiasm for the education process early
on in their schooling. Often they are bored in class, and therefore desire to
be removed from the drudgery of the classroom. This can become a real problem
when students reach the high school or college level. Dr. Benbow states that
“eventually, in college or graduate school, they’ll feel overwhelmed when they
can’t just coast through courses anymore” (qtd. in Kutner 1). This can create
an impulse to give up or quit among these students, potentially leading an
extremely bright student to utterly fail to meet his or her potential.
I faced this very problem when I
entered high school. Even though I had always been in accelerated courses, I
was rarely challenged in elementary or middle school. I tested at a college
reading level in the fifth grade. It is easy to see how I was able to succeed
in my courses without really trying. When I was accepted into International
Baccalaureate in high school, I completely fell apart. The program was
college-level coursework, and I had no idea how to really apply myself to my
education. I ended up dropping out of the program because I felt I could not
handle the coursework. I realize now that I just had not developed the study
skills necessary because my academic life prior to that had not challenged me
enough. I missed out on a great academic opportunity because I didn't receive the
necessary direction in elementary school.
My college education was long
delayed. Many advanced learners delay or never attend college because their
academic and social needs were not met in school. As a society, we cannot
afford to lose our best and brightest minds because of a system that ignores or
under serves gifted learners. The expense of creating separate classrooms is
unnecessary and does not benefit gifted students. Gifted students should have
their academic needs met in a program that addresses their social
vulnerabilities and academic talents by either integrating their curriculum or
advancing them to higher grade levels.
Cited in this excerpt:
Kutner, Lawrence. “Parent and Child”. The New York Times,
The New York Times, 2 July 1992, Web.2 April 2011.
Conklin, Wendy M.A. and Shelly Frei. Differentiating the Curriculum for Gifted Learners. Huntington
Beach, CA: Shell Education, 2007. Print.
I certainly can relate to some of these experiences. I think it speaks to the absurdity of a system built on the premise that 80% of kids are "regular", and the remaining 20% divide neatly into "Special:Gifted", and "Special:Challenged".
ReplyDeleteEvery kid is not only unique physically, and psychologically, but each one sits at their own particular intersection of privileges and disadvantages. I didnt have access good nutrition, but I never faced actual starvation. I received corporal punishment and lived under the constant threat of abandonment...But was never sexually mistreated as a child, or whipped until I bled, as kids i knew were. I had plenty of access to books in my house, but my parents had very little time, or energy, or inclination to consider what my inner life was like.
So which "type" did all this make me? In a class full of kids who ate well , and whose parents had physical and emotional resources to devote to them, I appeared to be somewhat challenged.
In the context of most of the inner city public schools i attended my conditions conspired to make me appear to be fairly gifted.
I was, of course, both...but there werent enough resources in public education to allow you to check multiple boxes in determining who you were then, as there arent enough for that now
I'd argue you were (and are) extremely gifted. I was blessed with a helpful Father...but I was never praised for...well anything. Kindness, boldness maybe. But academics were expected. And I was always considered the ugly duckling in my family. When I hit High School, my normal routines hit a wall. I was no longer far ahead, and I didn't know how to study. I had undiagnosed ADD and as typical with that I cannot organize or motivate myself easily. I've learned to handle it now..but then I internalized every teacher who called me lazy or a slacker. My Dad didn't know how to deal w/his straight A little girl now be a C student and attacked me verbally (Failure was a daily thing)and...worse. That's how I ended up in New York for the last six months of High School. My then Boyfriend found me a place with his family.And...you know a lot of the rest. The fact is we treat our kids like little automatons and their not. Men, especially, don't function well in this system...we're failing.
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